I haven’t been to church in like a year. I really need to get to that place & let my soul feel something positive. this military life is something stressful, I tell you. I really wish I could fly to California or Atlanta, or something & go to church. I love Dr. Stanley & I definitely miss Rev. Starr ; I need some soul healing word, something to let me know the Lord is still here, although I know he is. & he’s never left me… it’s just good to hear. I have to find a good church at my next duty section. It’s imperative, especially being a wife, it’s going to be VERY stressful. I know I have an amazing support group; but things are so different now. especially, being like so close to being married. I don’t really know who I can confide in now besides him. I need more positive people. I hope my next duty station has better people than this place, that I’m at right now. because, I feel like I’m going to kill someone here.! 

sigh.

; I need to find an amazing church home ; I think I am missing God in my life … I keep wanting things to happen & wondering why they aren’t happening the way I want them to & I do believe it is because, I’m not right with Christ. now, I will rant to anyone about the love of the Lord. I am a believer. I don’t consider myself extremely religious , I’m probably more spiritual but I feel the need to go to church & I’ve never felt that . I think it’s just about that time. I’ve been straying away from what I know way too long & it’s time for me to come back. I feel like the prodigal son , well, daughter in this case… but yes, I HAVE to go to church Sunday morning. I just know its going to make my life better. I need that ; to keep me grounded. I love the Lord, for he has heard my cry. I need to pray more often too. I never do that. I haven’t really prayed in years. sheesh ; I’ve got to do better. I’m going to go to church Sunday even if I have to go alone. -_-

#thatisALL.